Prabhuji Bhagavan, my Beloved Deity

There are tastes which are sweet at first And end up bitter And there are those which start unpleasant But are followed by sweetness after all The suffering for the Master Is of the second kind It's a longing that may hurt Even when He is present This pain carries the source of all sweetness When this feeling vanish And we feel comfortable All get superficial and without depth We enjoy attachments and get hurt The Master's Grace uplift you By bringing one back to suffer for Him And to feel this longing that pulls us To God's Feet The Master's touch destroy the false ideas Of happiness and comfort Annihilates every safe place that the mind could find This sweet suffering is the nectar of God Enjoy every time the Master allows you to suffer for Him Sing His Name with an open and crushed heart And believe He forever holds your hand

Beloved Gurudev, Why the fire of your presence doesn't extinguish all my desires? When I'm close to You and You give me the chance of serving My heart rejoices and nothing more matters But there's times when there's a pressure in my heart My mind is agitated, desires cover my devotion Feeling miserable, dirty and unworthy I beg for shelter at Your LotusFeet The only shelter You are impossible to conceive and comprehend As You Grace cleanses me and makes me stronger I feel crushed and suffer, I see my mistakes being repeated The fire of Your Presence burns everything Allow it to burn my desires as well Guide finally my mind to surrender to You Have mercy on me How can I ever doubt Your supreme Love? How can I forget the commands You gave me Of never worrying and always being happy? Please look at that Love inside of me Not at all my errors which I commit Rise me close to Your Feet And bless me with sinc