Prabhuji Bhagavan, my Beloved Deity

There are tastes which are sweet at first And end up bitter And there are those which start unpleasant But are followed by sweetness after all The suffering for the Master Is of the second kind It's a longing that may hurt Even when He is present This pain carries the source of all sweetness When this feeling vanish And we feel comfortable All get superficial and without depth We enjoy attachments and get hurt The Master's Grace uplift you By bringing one back to suffer for Him And to feel this longing that pulls us To God's Feet The Master's touch destroy the false ideas Of happiness and comfort Annihilates every safe place that the mind could find This sweet suffering is the nectar of God Enjoy every time the Master allows you to suffer for Him Sing His Name with an open and crushed heart And believe He forever holds your hand

Beloved Gurudev, Why the fire of your presence doesn't extinguish all my desires? When I'm close to You and You give me the chance of serving My heart rejoices and nothing more matters But there's times when there's a pressure in my heart My mind is agitated, desires cover my devotion Feeling miserable, dirty and unworthy I beg for shelter at Your LotusFeet The only shelter You are impossible to conceive and comprehend As You Grace cleanses me and makes me stronger I feel crushed and suffer, I see my mistakes being repeated The fire of Your Presence burns everything Allow it to burn my desires as well Guide finally my mind to surrender to You Have mercy on me How can I ever doubt Your supreme Love? How can I forget the commands You gave me Of never worrying and always being happy? Please look at that Love inside of me Not at all my errors which I commit Rise me close to Your Feet And bless me with sinc

My Sweet Lord, who has a form and still pervades All Allow me to serve You and worship You So many layers of ignorance cover my eyes My thoughts are confused and create many ties How can I ask to be free if I know nothing,  but Allow me forever to serve and worship You In my heart there's a flame which makes all clear It was lit by Your Grace and burns constantly The flame of Your Love is the assurance I'm Yours You are my Satguru, my Ishtadev, my eternal shelter My Prabhuji, my Swamiji, my eternal bliss Sweet Lord, who has a form and still pervades All Allow me to serve You and worship You

So many faces I see around With sparkling eyes of Love It's You in all of them, Gurudev It's just Your Grace and nothing else So many lips sing Your praises And their voices carry bliss It's You in all of them Gurudev It's just Your Grace and nothing else All these hands which work In lovely meetings 'round the world All these joy and transformation In endless hearts of God's Lovers Your Feet blesses all parts of this world Your Sweetness finds its home in devotees hearts It's You in all of them Gurudev It's just Your Grace and nothing else

How could I give my life to You since it's already Your belonging How could i try to serve You As You don't need anything All my thoughts of surrender are dust Waiting to be touched by Your Feet All my trials in loving are just A wave failing in crossing the sea Daily i offer You what is Yours I renounce what was never mine I serve the Lord which is most humble Serving His bhaktas restlessly How unfair is this relationship, Gurudev Daily I clean my dirt, which You take And You shower me back with love and grace Nothing I can ever give You And You give me everything in exchange

I've lost my heart praising my Gurudev He, who has LakshmiNarayan inside of Him And is able to give the highest Grace I eternally bow down at His Lotusfeet I've lost my heart praising my Gurudev As this heart has ever belonged to Him In its place He gave me a feeling I barely deserve Of bliss in service and eternal shelter I've lost my heart praising my Gurudev Mahadevi and Govinda are in the form of Him Vrindavan and Sri Rangam follow His steps My heart forever resides where Gurudev rests For Paramahamsa Sri Swami Vishwananda